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Disturb us, Lord, when
We are too pleased with ourselves,
When our dreams have come true
Because we dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us, Lord, when
with the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst
For the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision
Of the new Heaven to dim.

Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly,
To venture on wilder seas
Where storms will show Your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.

We ask you to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push back the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.

—Attributed to Francis Drake, 1577

(Source: transformingnations)

Is there nothing to sing about to-day? Then borrow a song from to-morrow; sing of what is yet to be. Is this world dreary? Then think of the next.

—C.H. Spurgeon

hope

Romans 5:1-5

Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

the word “hope” has become my favorite word recently. we’re able to place our hope in the all powerful God, the God who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think (Ephesians 3:20). how amazing is that? what’s even more crazy is how we can still rejoice in our sufferings. i honestly don’t even know how to describe this feeling in the midst of suffering, but i guess this is what Paul talks about in Philippians 4:11-13, where he is content with whatever circumstance that he is in. only God can provide such peace and strength!

anyways, the part that really encourages me is in v. 5 of Romans 5. hope DOES NOT put us to shame, BECAUSE God’s love has been poured into our hearts THROUGH the Holy Spirit who HAS BEEN GIVEN to us. at times within our sufferings, we can feel as though there is no hope, as though God has not done anything yet to hear our prayers and to answer our cries. i guess this is just a reminder to myself (and to my fellow brothers and sisters whom i love) that God will absolutely not fail. if our hope is properly placed in Him, even in suffering, God WILL NOT put us to shame. He has already accomplished it all through His Son, who suffered, endured, had perfect character, and had 100% hope in God. and He promised/promises that He will be with us always (Matthew 28:20). He loves us enough to never leave us, to have given us the indwelling of the Spirit to continually minister to us and to sanctify us.

Hebrews 12:11 says For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it. yeah, honestly discipline isn’t very pleasant but once again, He gives us another promise, that He is training us/growing us through it, and that He will give us peace. i thank God for even placing it in our hearts to have hope in Him. through the Word we know that we don’t have to despair because of the many many promises that He gives and that He always upholds.

in suffering, we are not alone either. society tells us about the individualistic mindset, but the bible reminds us that we are but just a member of the entire body of Christ (1 Corinthians 12:26). if one member suffers all suffer together, and if one is honored, than all rejoice. i thank God that he’s placed us in a body where we can all support one another through prayer, words of encouragement, rebuke, acts of kindness, etc.

i know it sounds weird, but it is because He loves us that suffering happens. and it is because He loves us that He carries us through it. it is because He loves us that He makes us grow through it. ultimately in the end, God is glorified through our suffering (1 Peter 1:7). we have so much to look forward to. we can look forward to receiving comfort (Matthew 5:4), we can look forward to growth (Zechariah 13:9), we can look forward to joy (John 16:20), and best of all, we can look forward to the return of Christ in his full glory (all of Revelations). with all that we look forward to, how can we not have hope, knowing that God keeps His word. there’s a quote somewhere saying “God speaking is God acting”. so praise God! and i pray that in the end, our utmost desire would be to worship God and bring Him glory.

Do not think you are getting no good from the Bible, merely because you do not see that good day by day. The greatest effects are by no means those which make the most noise, and are most easily observed. The greatest effects are often silent, quiet, and hard to detect at the time they are being produced.

Think of the influence of the moon upon the earth, and of the air upon the human lungs. Remember how silently the dew falls, and how imperceptibly the grass grows. There may be far more doing than you think in your soul by your Bible-reading.

Expect great things from God; attempt great things for God.

—William Carey

to be honest

i had this super long paragraph written out that i was going to post up, but i deleted it. God used a friend and helped me realize that i wasn’t doing it for God but i was really writing it for myself. i’m genuinely thankful for the people that God has provided me with to gently point out my sins! so instead i’m just going to write out a few random things that’s been on my heart/mind lately. a lot of things have been running through my head and i’m still processing a lot and the Spirit is teaching me a lot yet it’s still difficult to word so here goes:

1. i forget. like i said before, with the previous post i was going to write i forgot that it’s all for God’s glory. i forget the gospel message and how it applies to me, i forget how helpless i really am, i forget my own sinfulness, i forget God’s goodness and grace, i forget the condemnation i deserve, i forget that i don’t belong here, i forget what i’m supposed to be doing and so on. i’m reminded of the hymn, “Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing” and when it says “Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it, Prone to leave the God I love”. i guess my prayer then is the next two lines to that song: “Here’s my heart, O take and seal it, Seal it for Thy courts above.”

2. i suck at being honest. even now as i write, it’s so insanely hard to write what just comes to mind instead of having to edit every other word and having to retype every sentence about 50 times. by God’s grace though, He’s been placing on my heart that i just have to be open and show others that i need Christ just as much/even more than they do. which leads me to…

3. false humility. something i struggle with intensely is humility. it’s so easy, to be “humble”. it’s so easy for me to say all of the right things and to act the way i’m supposed to. again, as i write this, i’m thinking “am i writing these words to just make myself sound humble?”…. “in writing that last statement, did you just share your own sinfulness so people can see you as being this holy guy who’s so willing to confess?”…. honestly it’s just a never ending cycle and i don’t know what to do.

4. community. this one’s not bad. i’m just really thankful for what God has provided for me. really, at times it brings me to tears when i think about how my friends treat me so well. sometimes i feel guilty and just wish they knew what was going on in my mind. either way though i’m incredibly thankful for my friends and fellow brothers/sisters in Christ. honestly if God hadn’t placed them in my life, i’m pretty sure i’d be screwed.

to be honest, this is only a very small portion of what’s on my mind/heart. to be honest, i’m pretty dissatisfied with this post and how it just doesn’t sound “right” to me and how i know that i couldn’t express myself as clearly as i wanted to. to be honest, i hate how i say “to be honest” a lot. i guess my prayer is that God would use my poor writing to bring glory to Himself, and that He would help me to be like a child and just be open and honest with Him.

Whenever we begin to pray for a particular unbeliever we have met, we may be confident that the Lord is there before us. He is at work in the inner recesses of hearts that we cannot see or touch. He has a far more passionate desire to save than you or I. Because of this, we can pray with certainty that he is able to give us wisdom to know what to say and how to say it, to teach us what questions to ask, what stories to tell, and what aspects of the truth to share.

You

are the captain of this ship. Help us to put our hope and faith in You